Yesterday morning I was one half of a pair.
This morning I was not.
Right now I am feeling very hurt, tired and used. My eyelids are puffy and red, my eyes are bloodshot, and the skin under my eyes is pink and hurts. I have been crying since about 10 last night and between the tears and the tissues, my skin is raw. I slept for about an hour last night.
This is the low point.
Realizing that you are not enough for someone you care deeply for is the loneliest of places.
But I have other people I am enough for. (I love you Mommy, Jessica and Diane.)
And at the end of the day, I like who I am. I am a decent, kind, honest and loving person. And perhaps that's not especially cool or attractive, but that's the deal. And despite everything I feel right now, I still have hope that someday someone will appreciate those qualities.
But right now, I'm going to keep crying. I have every right to.
(My title is from number 83 from 100 Blog Topics I Hope You Write)
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4 comments:
You are an amazing, wonderful woman. I know that doesn't help, but I wanted to remind you.
Shame on anyone who makes you feel like this, in the long run it will surely be their loss.
Big hug for my BFF {{{{HUG}}}}
Darlin', I'm so sorry to hear this awful news :( I can't agree more with Liz...you are just amazing! And if he didn't know that, then he doesn't deserve your big, goofy, warm & fuzzy, beautiful heart.
Shed your tears of hurt, but not for long. He's not worthy of them.
Love you!
j
Jen, I am so sorry. He was there for 2 seasons, for a reason, and I'm sure you learned a lot from the whole experience.
This heartache will do more to round you out as the perfect person you are continually becoming. And someday, someone lucky enough will be able to lap up all that experience, all that love, all the wonderful things you have to offer. Blah blah... I know right now that doesn't walk the dog, but it's true sweetie.
Go put on some Morrissey, cry, and move on.
Big hugs,
T
You are fabulous. HUGS!!!
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